The little engine that could...

Week one done of my 25 week wedding countdown.

Day 167.

There is something to be said about the power of positive thinking.  As someone who nearly failed all science classes in high school I was terrified of the anatomy class I was going to have to take to pass massage therapy school.  But I was determined that I had to pass it, and I had to pass it at 100%.  That's right.  I told myself that I would get 100% on every test.  And guess what?  I did.  Well, in truth I missed two test dates so one was automatically docked 10% and I ended up with a 98% in the class but still.  I call that success.  I aimed high and far exceeded my true expectations of myself.

And yet this weight loss thing is a killer.  I never last tracking more than a week and half, and get derailed, only to put myself right back on plan after I've gained some of the hard earned weight loss back.  I'm more or less torturing myself.  Or it could be self sabotage.  I'm honestly not sure anymore.

That being said, I have 167 days until my wedding.  Which also means I'm not far off from my honeymoon in Hawaii, and I'll be damned if I'm going to be uncomfortable in my body by then.

So...I made a countdown calendar.  I truly am trying to take this one day at a time.  My food choices haven't been 100% but I haven't been horrible and I'm getting better.  I'm tracking everything so that's good.  I've done this for a week, I'm going to do it for the next 20 something weeks.  I am going to succeed.  I will reach my goal weight (174 for the wedding, I don't expect to get down to 151 in six months).

I am walking more (at least an hour a day on my horrendously long lunch break), and have worked out a few times this week too.

Keep me positive people.  If I can do this, albeit slowly, anyone can do this.  Let's do it together!

~Shannah, Current weight: 214.6 at last Monday's weigh in.  Size 16.

PS
Does ANYONE ever read this???  What can I do better?  I know I haven't posted pictures or anything.  Someone let me know if they're reading.  I'd love to know that I'm not just talking to myself.