Getting back on track...

Yesterday was the first day since Grandma had her stroke that I hadn't cried.  It was a good feeling because you realize you really are capable of moving on after such a thing.

I also got back to eating healthy and Nick and I have been taking walks after dinner.

I am down to 214.4!  So just two more pounds until I take new photos.  Hopefully there will be some difference in the ten pounds I've lost.  If not, then I wonder if it was all water weight????

We go to Disney World in 46 days!  I'm hoping I slim down quite a bit by then.  I'd like to be at 200.  I felt pretty good when I got down to 204 which was the smallest I had been in a long time over a year ago, but as a reminder, I wasn't eating because I was broke and trying to pay bills first.

I've been eating cheerios for breakfast to get in fiber and help lower what I assume is high cholesterol.  I mean, I'm overweight.  I've been eating junk since I was little.  I am sure it's high.  And until I can go to the doctor, I will assume the worst.  My blood pressure is normal though.  Thank God because high blood pressure is what caused Grandmas stroke.

Does anyone even read this????

Sadness...

Sadly, my grandmother passed away on Wed.  Her funeral was Saturday.  I am still trying to deal and am in half-denial.  I spent days in the hospital with her, and yet it doesn't seem real.

Needless to say my diet and exercise has been thrown terribly off, but if for any reason I get back on track, it is so that I avoid the health problems she had.

God give me the strength.

Reasons

My grandmother is 70.  She has diabetes, had a triple bypass last year, and I just got called saying she has had a stroke with bleeding on the brain.

It has put into view my reasons for wanting to lose weight.  Healthy has always been good but mostly I wanted to be skinny.  It's true.

This changes everything.

OMG I'm STILL SICK!

I have almost completely lost my voice now.  I'm at 217 even though I had a few days of bad eating (A friend bought me lunch at Red Robin and then Nick got us Chinese food that night!) and I still haven't been able to work out.  It's starting to get annoying because I expected to see more progress at this point but I can't have progress if I'm sick and not able to be active.  And it's so beautiful outside!  Well, it's raining today but it has been warm.

Hoping for a change in my voice soon because a place called me for an interview and I can barely talk.  I have to yell to be heard at a whisper.  SO ANNOYING.  And I had to leave a message when they called back so I hope they can hear it!  I need work!

Stuffy nose...ugh!

Well, so far the Phillips Colon health is working.  Three days in a row.  Let me clarify it is NOT a colon cleanse. I don't feel those are healthy.  It's probiotics (bacteria) that help naturally regulate your movements.

I didn't eat well yesterday, but I still managed to maintain weight.  I have to admit I'm a little obsessed with the scale which I have long said is NOT healthy but I know how easy it is for me to stop keeping track, and I also want to see how the food I eat is effecting my weight.  Kind of like a scientific study.  Because I'm thinking my metabolism is really slow.

I am so ready to start exercising, well walking, again.  I'm bored of sitting around on the laptop and watching TV.  I'm hoping I get that job.  But there are still a few more steps to the process so we'll see.  It'll mean working weekends but I guess that's something I'll have to compromise for a while.

Go away sickness!

So no workout today, I'm still feeling crappy.  I knew this would happen!  I also indulged in some frozen waffles because I didn't eat very many calories yesterday and that of course made my stomach queasy.  So no more waffles for me.

I'm chilling on the couch watching The Revolution today and they just stated that studies show people who skip breakfast every morning gain one pound of fat a month!  Ugh!  That's 12 pounds a year!  So I'm glad I've started eating breakfast and watching everything else I eat.

I've cut out soda of all kind, even diet, and no fast food.  So there are two big bad for you things that I've cut out.

Can't wait until I feel up to walking again.  I hate having to rest.  It's boring.

Sickness go away....but yay!

I'm down to 218.  Even.  I had to weigh myself several times to be sure.  That means I'm only two pounds heavier than when I met Nick. Which, while not my ideal weight, is awesome, and it's also my 5% mark according to WW.

I took my first Colon Health pill yesterday and actually had a nice easy bowel movement this morning when I woke up.  Even though most people said it takes a week to start working I'm happy.  Let's see if it continues.

On the downside, my throat is really sore.  I have an interview tomorrow and I don't want to overdo anything today so I'm thinking since after I wrote that post yesterday I got bored and walked another hour, I will probably take it easy.  Which sucks when I got such good results from eating pretty decent and working out yesterday.

Oh...and Nick is FOR SURE taking me to Disney World!  I've never been and I am SO excited.  But I do need to continue walking to get stamina up for all the walking we'll be doing.  A little over two months!  And I'd like to be a bit thinner by then.  I bought all sorts of really good for you food.  Apples, oranges, celery, peas, eggs.  And plan on sticking to that for breakfast lunch, etc.  Oh and peanut butter.  Peanut butter is my extra.  It's all natural kind (Skippy's all natural has all the same nutritional info as regular but the ingredients are different) so I'm okay allowing myself a bit of it.  Protein.

That's enough for now.  I'm pretty sure nobody reads this anyway.

Into Mordor and Onward with Exercise!

I've been keeping up with my walking and have even started my workouts with the yoga DVD or today I did a dance video (glad nobody is here to watch because I do less dancing and more flailing).  And I even walked an hour and ten minutes today!  Woooo!

I feel accomplished but I wish I could get my weight to drop off faster.  I'm not eating perfect, last night I made sugar cookies, but I'm not eating like I was (can we say McDonalds two times a week?).  One of my main concerns is that perhaps my digestive system isn't helping me out.  I wouldn't normally talk about bowel movements but I do think it's important to good health.  I go about once a week.  Maybe twice if I'm lucky, and it's rarely very much.  So WHERE is all that food going?  Today I'm going grocery shopping and I plan on picking up that Phillips Colon Health.  I've done some reading, it is not a colon cleanse, and it usually starts working after a week, but I figure one week is ok by me if it helps me digest my food like I need to be doing.  FYI fiber has not helped.  I'll keep everyone updated on how it's working.

Until then, keep positive, any exercise is better than NO exercise, and it my stamina is getting better, even if I'm not losing weight!

The Past Two Days...

Yesterday I quit my new job.  It was awful and wasn't the right fit for me as I see myself as a massage therapist.  So I got home and I couldn't sit.  I was pretty upset.  I know I put a lot of pressure on Nick financially since I don't have a job and it really bothers me.

I took it as an opportunity to exercise.  I was going to walk for 40 minutes again, and I put in The Lion King.  I walked for an hour.  I just didn't feel like stopping so I didn't.  I also did 50 stability ball push-ups! I must have had adrenaline going because today I only walked 30 minutes and didn't do many reps, but at least I got off my butt.  Today I watched Shrek.

I'm thinking I might watch Pirates of the Caribbean tomorrow.  It's a good way to keep my attention going.

I ate ok today.  I had a small salad and some corn for lunch.  We had subway for dinner.  I ate 2 lemon girl scout cookies.  One homemade cookie that I didn't enjoy (they need to be thrown out), and I actually think that's it.  I need to start eating breakfast.

Speaking of which...I read today that if you eat breakfast before you work out you will burn more fat because your metabolism is already going.  So that's the tip for the day: Eat breakfast before your workout!