I did it!!!!

So, I'm finally past 214.2  Which is what the scale said ALL weekend.  Yesterday I was a little more strict on myself so it finally moved down!  I didn't eat any of the weekly points (which seem to be more to maintain weight) and I saved a few of my daily points.  And the scale said....212.8 this morning!!!!!  Woooooo!!!

I'm not going to post any new pictures today, because it's not quite 20 pounds lost yet, so I'll hopefully get to take those tomorrow.  If I'm at 212.2 or something I'll still do them.  So look for those tomorrow!

I can't wait to see where I'll be at in two weeks when we go to Disney World if I stay on track.  207 here I come!  I think I can do it!

Oh, and the other day I made a yummy cake using a spice cake mix, a 15 oz can of pumpkin, 1/2 a  cup water, and two eggs.  Put in a 13x9 pan and cut into 15 pieces it's only 3 points a piece.  I did add some cream cheese frosting which is horrible (not tasting-wise though!) and makes it about a 7 point treat but sometimes it's worth it if I still stay within points.

Someone also told me that if you add pumpkin to just a chocolate mix and no water or anything it tastes like brownies so that's on the list next!

Time to start exercising!

The first few days of Weight Watchers I always loose like crazy, well, today I was down .2 pounds.  So, while I'm not complaining that I'm back to 214.2, I need to do some more to start losing faster before Disney!  7 pounds to go before my goal and 19 days to do it!  It CAN and will happen!

Plus, my hip/piriformis muscle is really starting to bother me again and quite honestly walking and stretches are what makes it go away, so no point in living in pain right?

It's not worth being miserable every day, just for five seconds of taste!

And that is what I have decided.  Weight Watchers is going very well.  I am back down to 214.4. Yes I am on the scale every day but that is for a confidence boost and to assure I'm doing things to help myself to the best I can.

I'm eating breakfast every day, and drinking 64 oz of water.  I am also eating all the points I'm supposed to but I am tracking everything very closely.  No guessing "about how many points".

I have ate at Outback and enjoyed it, and I even at Taco Johns yesterday.  Did I eat two softshells and a large ole?  No.  I had one softshell and a small potato ole. And I took small bites and actually enjoyed it.

And tomorrow when I step on the scale, I will be down again.  Because I can do this, because I want to do this, and because food is not more important than how I feel about how I look!

It certainly does work.

My first week of weight watchers I'm always surprised at how quickly the weight falls off.  I started back up at 218.8 and am down to 215.4 after three days.  I know it won't continue to stay this way but it's a relief to at least see weight starting to fall off and not pack on.  I'm hoping to get down to 212 soon so I can take some new pictures.  I don't think there will be much of a change in how my body looks just yet, but I want to take pictures for every 10 pounds lost because I saw someone else do it and when you you start getting skinny it's awesome to see how much 10 pounds makes a difference.

Anyway, so happy that it's dropping off, wondering when that will stop a little, and hoping I don't hit any bumps too soon!  207 before Disney here I come!  (Why I picked 207 I don't know.  I wanted to be under 200 but felt that was unreachable in two months when we realized we were going to Disney.  With WW in 20 days it might not be so unobtainable but I don't want to fail and small goals are good.

Success!

After two days on Weight Watchers I have already lost 2.6 pounds!  The plus side to this is that I even ate at Outback (I checked points of everything first), and was never hungry!

I drank lots of water, and ate all my points, so I wasn't starving myself.  I don't know how WW does it, but it does!  C'mon Disney!  I'm getting ready!  21 more days!

Back on Weight Watchers....

After admitting my major fail, and then stepping on the scale to see I had gained almost two more pounds....I joined weight watchers again.  I know it works.  I know it's hard to stick to for myself, but I know it works.  And it typically works pretty fast for me I just can't go past two weeks.  I know it'll be a struggle, but I work now so I can buy food I need, and Mr. Wiggles (my future Pugs name) is total motivation.

Wish me luck.  I started yesterday so we'll see how it goes and I'll keep you updated!

Fessing Up

So this past week, I've done very bad.  I haven't done a thing to loose weight and I've done everything to gain.  I've ate fast food several days in a row, and yesterday ate it twice.  I go there telling myself all the way how horrible it is for me, but I can't stop myself.

So I told Nick.  And I cried. And he was supportive.  He told me he didn't know what to do to help me but he loved me very much and wanted a long life with me and didn't want that cut short.  And then a few minutes later said that if I get down to 182 (which is not my goal but 30 pounds)  he will buy me a pug.  That's right, he'll get me a dog.

So, I printed out this a few pug pictures, one on the fridge and one for the dashboard of my car, so I can remember how much I'd rather have a dog than eat junk.

Sad that my own health and being thin are not good enough inspirations.  I just have  hard time looking in the mirror and picturing it and when I hit a roadblock it's so discouraging.

What do you guys do?

On that note, I leave you with Mr. Wiggles:

30 days until Disney...and I haven't even made it to 212 yet!

And I wanted to be 207.  As of todays weight of 217....that's ten more pounds in 30 days.  I'm getting an elliptical but I don't know when I'll get it so I can't bank on that for exercise and I've been kinda tired with work too.  I'm sore and not sleeping well.  I know if I exercise I'd feel better but it wasn't helping me lose weight even with a restricted diet so I gave up and have been eating BAD this week.  Like any sort of craving for fast food I have indulged.

Which is why I'm at 217 today.  Ugh!

Drowning in a sea of bad food....

I have been horribly bad the past few days.  I can't seem to get a grip and now that I'm working and have my own money it's been very difficult.  It's easy to eat right when you can't go buy fast food during the day!

I'm getting a good amount of money back on my taxes so I'm going to be an elliptical.  I've for some reason abandoned my workout routine which is a shame because I was feeling the difference in my everyday activities in a good way.

But the weight wasn't coming off and it was very discouraging to work hard and see NO results and it felt like I wasn't doing enough but I couldn't figure out what to do to make a change.  So I am hoping the elliptical will change that.  I do better when I exercise but I can't get myself to do it.

I'll figure it out.

Plateau....plateau....

So I'm stuck at around 215.  It waivers.  And when I get upset about not losing more weight Nick just says "weightloss isn't easy and there are lots of plateaus..."  After every 5 pounds though!?!?!?  Seriously???  I don't feel like I'm doing enough and since Grandma died I'm back to eating more junk.  I was doing so good.  But my willpower has faded.  You would THINK that with grandma dying because of health related issues caused by her weight I'd be super motivated.  But it's not motivating.

But I have lost 17 pounds since January 1st.  I should be proud of myself.  Why am I not proud of myself?

Help, My Scale is Lying to Me!

As in, depending on where it is on my bathroom floor I weigh something different.  Anywhere between 214.6 to 215.6.  I typically try to line it up in the same space every day but it gave me two different readings in that spot so who knows.  And the last few times it said 215 so I'll accept that.

We ate dinner out TWICE this weekend.  Once at a Pizza Ranch Buffet so you know how that goes.  And we got Culvers ice cream last night.  So I'm not doing too hot.  And since I had gotten sick I haven't exercised on a daily basis like I had before.  So today I'm staring...bah bah bah...30 Day Shred!  I will probably only ever be able to do Level One, if that, but we'll see how it goes.  In 30 days, maybe I'll see a difference.  I've read I should measure myself but I'm not very good at doing that in the same spot every time so I'm not going to.

And one thing to remember... MUSCLE WEIGHS MORE THAN FAT!  So if I gain I can't get to hard on myself unless it's from eating poorly like I did this weekend.

Getting back on track...

Yesterday was the first day since Grandma had her stroke that I hadn't cried.  It was a good feeling because you realize you really are capable of moving on after such a thing.

I also got back to eating healthy and Nick and I have been taking walks after dinner.

I am down to 214.4!  So just two more pounds until I take new photos.  Hopefully there will be some difference in the ten pounds I've lost.  If not, then I wonder if it was all water weight????

We go to Disney World in 46 days!  I'm hoping I slim down quite a bit by then.  I'd like to be at 200.  I felt pretty good when I got down to 204 which was the smallest I had been in a long time over a year ago, but as a reminder, I wasn't eating because I was broke and trying to pay bills first.

I've been eating cheerios for breakfast to get in fiber and help lower what I assume is high cholesterol.  I mean, I'm overweight.  I've been eating junk since I was little.  I am sure it's high.  And until I can go to the doctor, I will assume the worst.  My blood pressure is normal though.  Thank God because high blood pressure is what caused Grandmas stroke.

Does anyone even read this????

Sadness...

Sadly, my grandmother passed away on Wed.  Her funeral was Saturday.  I am still trying to deal and am in half-denial.  I spent days in the hospital with her, and yet it doesn't seem real.

Needless to say my diet and exercise has been thrown terribly off, but if for any reason I get back on track, it is so that I avoid the health problems she had.

God give me the strength.

Reasons

My grandmother is 70.  She has diabetes, had a triple bypass last year, and I just got called saying she has had a stroke with bleeding on the brain.

It has put into view my reasons for wanting to lose weight.  Healthy has always been good but mostly I wanted to be skinny.  It's true.

This changes everything.

OMG I'm STILL SICK!

I have almost completely lost my voice now.  I'm at 217 even though I had a few days of bad eating (A friend bought me lunch at Red Robin and then Nick got us Chinese food that night!) and I still haven't been able to work out.  It's starting to get annoying because I expected to see more progress at this point but I can't have progress if I'm sick and not able to be active.  And it's so beautiful outside!  Well, it's raining today but it has been warm.

Hoping for a change in my voice soon because a place called me for an interview and I can barely talk.  I have to yell to be heard at a whisper.  SO ANNOYING.  And I had to leave a message when they called back so I hope they can hear it!  I need work!

Stuffy nose...ugh!

Well, so far the Phillips Colon health is working.  Three days in a row.  Let me clarify it is NOT a colon cleanse. I don't feel those are healthy.  It's probiotics (bacteria) that help naturally regulate your movements.

I didn't eat well yesterday, but I still managed to maintain weight.  I have to admit I'm a little obsessed with the scale which I have long said is NOT healthy but I know how easy it is for me to stop keeping track, and I also want to see how the food I eat is effecting my weight.  Kind of like a scientific study.  Because I'm thinking my metabolism is really slow.

I am so ready to start exercising, well walking, again.  I'm bored of sitting around on the laptop and watching TV.  I'm hoping I get that job.  But there are still a few more steps to the process so we'll see.  It'll mean working weekends but I guess that's something I'll have to compromise for a while.

Go away sickness!

So no workout today, I'm still feeling crappy.  I knew this would happen!  I also indulged in some frozen waffles because I didn't eat very many calories yesterday and that of course made my stomach queasy.  So no more waffles for me.

I'm chilling on the couch watching The Revolution today and they just stated that studies show people who skip breakfast every morning gain one pound of fat a month!  Ugh!  That's 12 pounds a year!  So I'm glad I've started eating breakfast and watching everything else I eat.

I've cut out soda of all kind, even diet, and no fast food.  So there are two big bad for you things that I've cut out.

Can't wait until I feel up to walking again.  I hate having to rest.  It's boring.

Sickness go away....but yay!

I'm down to 218.  Even.  I had to weigh myself several times to be sure.  That means I'm only two pounds heavier than when I met Nick. Which, while not my ideal weight, is awesome, and it's also my 5% mark according to WW.

I took my first Colon Health pill yesterday and actually had a nice easy bowel movement this morning when I woke up.  Even though most people said it takes a week to start working I'm happy.  Let's see if it continues.

On the downside, my throat is really sore.  I have an interview tomorrow and I don't want to overdo anything today so I'm thinking since after I wrote that post yesterday I got bored and walked another hour, I will probably take it easy.  Which sucks when I got such good results from eating pretty decent and working out yesterday.

Oh...and Nick is FOR SURE taking me to Disney World!  I've never been and I am SO excited.  But I do need to continue walking to get stamina up for all the walking we'll be doing.  A little over two months!  And I'd like to be a bit thinner by then.  I bought all sorts of really good for you food.  Apples, oranges, celery, peas, eggs.  And plan on sticking to that for breakfast lunch, etc.  Oh and peanut butter.  Peanut butter is my extra.  It's all natural kind (Skippy's all natural has all the same nutritional info as regular but the ingredients are different) so I'm okay allowing myself a bit of it.  Protein.

That's enough for now.  I'm pretty sure nobody reads this anyway.

Into Mordor and Onward with Exercise!

I've been keeping up with my walking and have even started my workouts with the yoga DVD or today I did a dance video (glad nobody is here to watch because I do less dancing and more flailing).  And I even walked an hour and ten minutes today!  Woooo!

I feel accomplished but I wish I could get my weight to drop off faster.  I'm not eating perfect, last night I made sugar cookies, but I'm not eating like I was (can we say McDonalds two times a week?).  One of my main concerns is that perhaps my digestive system isn't helping me out.  I wouldn't normally talk about bowel movements but I do think it's important to good health.  I go about once a week.  Maybe twice if I'm lucky, and it's rarely very much.  So WHERE is all that food going?  Today I'm going grocery shopping and I plan on picking up that Phillips Colon Health.  I've done some reading, it is not a colon cleanse, and it usually starts working after a week, but I figure one week is ok by me if it helps me digest my food like I need to be doing.  FYI fiber has not helped.  I'll keep everyone updated on how it's working.

Until then, keep positive, any exercise is better than NO exercise, and it my stamina is getting better, even if I'm not losing weight!

The Past Two Days...

Yesterday I quit my new job.  It was awful and wasn't the right fit for me as I see myself as a massage therapist.  So I got home and I couldn't sit.  I was pretty upset.  I know I put a lot of pressure on Nick financially since I don't have a job and it really bothers me.

I took it as an opportunity to exercise.  I was going to walk for 40 minutes again, and I put in The Lion King.  I walked for an hour.  I just didn't feel like stopping so I didn't.  I also did 50 stability ball push-ups! I must have had adrenaline going because today I only walked 30 minutes and didn't do many reps, but at least I got off my butt.  Today I watched Shrek.

I'm thinking I might watch Pirates of the Caribbean tomorrow.  It's a good way to keep my attention going.

I ate ok today.  I had a small salad and some corn for lunch.  We had subway for dinner.  I ate 2 lemon girl scout cookies.  One homemade cookie that I didn't enjoy (they need to be thrown out), and I actually think that's it.  I need to start eating breakfast.

Speaking of which...I read today that if you eat breakfast before you work out you will burn more fat because your metabolism is already going.  So that's the tip for the day: Eat breakfast before your workout!